January 23, 2014 Thursday, Brazil
Barbara’s Brail Journal, Post 7a
Everyone in my group was either recovering from operations (9 people) or in current today so I sat in the Entity’s Current all day. Tomorrow, through 2nd time line to ask for waterfall passes:
por favor, eu quero passes cachoeira para o meu grupo de vinte pessoas
Wording is adequate but probably incorrect somewhere….We’ll see how I do.
Later: He understood my Portuguese, smiled at me and gave me 20 waterfall passes!
Current this morning was light filled, blissful. This afternoon, agitated mind, body pain… I was told afterward that Jose Penteado, who was incorporated, said at the end, in Portuguese, “I don’t want anyone to leave in pain. If you have pain, come up.” Many people got up including a woman in my row. I peeked and saw him putting his hand on a man’s back. My back hurt and I wished so much he would attend to it that way, but of course 1) I’m deaf and 2) the invitation was in Portuguese and not translated. I felt sad afterward. This kind of experience is the one thing that stops me from feeling truly at home here, loved and respected. I don’t take it personally, but unless I can learn the language it will never be home. I often do feel like a second-class citizen. I have tried hard to learn Portuguese, but in that kind of situation, where my eyes are closed, I would never get the invitation. And I’m spoiled by the loving care I receive at home, where people remember that I’m deaf and make sure I “hear” what is needed.
Back to the Current this AM, briefly as I want to get to bed. Feeling a lot of high energy and light, mind very calm. I sat in that still space perhaps 2 hours. I went out to the bathroom; coming back to my seat I noticed the woman 2 down from me with those male/ female water crystals. These are very special crystals people are occasionally offered an invitation to buy. They are sold as matched pairs, are very high energy, from deep in the earth, crystals that contain water. If you buy a set, you are asked not to show them to anyone else or let anyone handle them. People hold them in cloth bags, hands inside the bags like mittens. They “adapt” to you, to your energy field. And they are VERY expensive, upward of $1000. A few people in my groups have been offered them, and 1 or 2 bought them. Most did not. I would not. It’s just too much money. I’m sure they would be supportive but are not necessary.
So her hands, holding the crystals, caught my eye as I sat down. I closed my eyes but my energy moved toward her and was immediately snatched back by spirit with a caution, “private.” There was a sharp pulling energy away from her. Then spirit (not sure which entity) asked me if wanted a pair. They would make sure I was offered an invitation to purchase them. I immediately apologized for the wandering energy/ curiosity, and said no. I know they would be useful but are not needed and are too expensive. About 3 minutes passed and then the same Entity said, open your hands palm up on lap. I did so and felt a ‘weight’ and strong energy in each one. I actually opened my eyes for a moment, because they felt so solid I thought there might be objects there. They have very beautiful energy. I could feel a radiance and intensity of them.
The one in the left hand was male, the right hand female. I was told to bring the male energy into my heart and balance it with the female energy, then send out the Divine Feminine, balanced with the divine Masculine, through the right hand. I practiced with it a few minutes. Then spirit said I should reach for them each time before an Entity incorporated in this body, use them to balance the Barbara body before releasing consciousness so spirit could incorporate, that this would help the body hold that high energy. And hold them each time I meditate and in Current. I’m very grateful to them.
Current was short in the afternoon; rain pouring down so no pool; I headed to Frutti’s and had some acai with Amy and Robert.