October 9, 2017 Monday, Chicago Group
On Guidance and the Higher Self; Barbara’s Higher Self Speaks; Darshan with Jeshua
(partially recorded and transcribed)
Aaron: There were certain themes as you spoke. One of the primary themes for most of you is connecting with your guidance; beginning to trust the core essence of yourselves. Your guidance guides you, and you draw the guidance to you dependent on what you, of your free will, choose to learn and the direction you choose to go. If there’s any hesitation on your part on that direction, even the subtle, “Am I good enough to do this? Am I strong enough? Am I wise enough?”, you’re like to draw in some guidance who, while not negatively polarized, may also be with you in that wavering.
You may start with the question, “My intention is to connect more firmly with my guides,” higher self, or channeled guides, or any form of guidance, “My intention is to draw forth the guidance that truly is for the highest good of all beings, in service to all beings, and parallels my intention to be of service to all beings.” Then you see the little, “Am I good enough to do that?” and state: “I ask for a guide who can help me move through this vague sense of uncertainty.” Then the guide that comes will be strongly highly positively polarized and may begin to ask you questions that support the process of opening to guidance. Thirty years ago, Barbara consciously became aware of me. I had been her guide through her whole life. But when she first became consciously aware, I gave her meditations working with the chakras and with light to help release the obstacles to hearing me better; to allow her to tune into me more clearly; to relieve the fear— “I’m not good enough, wise enough, capable enough to do this.” So, my first guidance to her was simply to work with the chakras, bringing in light, releasing any visually-seen dark color and distortion; bringing everything into openness.
(continuing with talk)
Q: How do we differentiate our guides from our higher selves during meditation?
Aaron: In the beginning, you don’t need to. Eventually, if you ask, “Who are you?” they could introduce themselves. “I am your higher self.” “I am your guide.” The higher self feels different in energy than a guide. With a guide, there’s a clear sense of a distinctly separate being, although nothing is separate on one level. With the higher self, you feel it as an extension of yourself. You feel it in deep meditation when your heart is very open and it’s clear that this is the highest expression of the self.
One moment please… I am asking Barbara’s higher self if she wishes to talk, and she says she does not think she can incorporate in Barbara’s body since she is Barbara. She says, Aaron, can I speak for her? So in a sense, I am channeling Asha, Barbara’s higher self.
Asha: Please note that I am always incorporated as part of Barbara, so I cannot quite incorporate. Because Barbara’s consciousness is out of the body, I am out of the body. If I come back into the body, I draw Barbara’s consciousness back into the body with me.
I am the aspect of Barbara that has been aware through many, many lifetimes. The core essence of her energy, the first spark of God that developed into being-ness. —Aaron is asking me to slow down so he can follow my thoughts.
Aaron: I am Aaron. Asha will come back. You begin as what I call a spark of God. If I use the word God, please substitute Goddess if you prefer. No masculine or feminine here, just a spark of the Divine. That spark of the Divine matures gradually until the moment when it chooses to be self-aware. We come back to the story of the Garden of Eden. You dwelled in that Garden, fully within the Garden. And then at a certain moment you ate the apple, as it were; you chose to know yourself as distinct from that All-that-is. This was the awakening of the separated self, which was never truly separated, but you needed the illusion, the belief it was separated, in order to grow and mature. Within the Garden there was only divine will, by which you happily abided. There was no different, personal will. How can you return to knowing that your own personal will is the same as the divine will until you explore that personal will, like the child who says, “No, I won’t do that!” to the parents. “I’m going to eat that cookie. I’m going to run across the street.” And the parent is screaming, “No! Don’t!” Eventually the child almost gets hit by a car, or gets a bellyache from eating too many cookies, and begins to understand, “Maybe I’d be wiser to try to follow the parents’ directions, or understand why they’re giving those directions. This is truly what I want, also.” Then one begins to open to the innate higher wisdom of Divine Consciousness that has always been the essence of the Self.
So slowly the ego self and the divine self come together. The ego self is not bad. The ego self is the expression of the mundane human, and the divine self is the higher self. They come together. You need the human experience, which means you need the small self. And you need to know yourself as the higher self, the divine self. And this is discovered through meditation.
Asha, do you want to continue?
Asha: So, through Barbara’s many lifetimes, I have been the core of awareness to whom she could turn, and increasingly learned how to turn to, at first without knowing me, just knowing me as love, you might say. But then, in several of her past lives, she came to know me directly. Then, using this life as an example, I was able to speak to her. But because she had Aaron’s guidance I stepped into the background. I am Barbara’s higher self, but I am not an enlightened meditation master, for example, and Aaron is much better at directing her in these areas.
The beautiful entities, such as Dom Inacio, were much better able to give her specific direction at how to move her consciousness out of her body and let spirit in. Father John as a spirit doctor is much better at guiding her in dealing with distortions in the physical body. But I remain the core heart essence. I am whole. I am the place Barbara-consciousness can rest. So, I don’t so much guide and talk to her as remind her: come home, come home. That seems to be my primary work, and I think you will find that true for you with your higher selves. Aaron, I give this back to you.
Aaron: Thank you, Asha. I am Aaron. I don’t believe we’ve ever heard Asha speak like that before.
Q: Do our higher selves have names?
Aaron: Of course, but for the most part our names are really energy vibration, unpronounceable. Even my name– my name is not Aaron— is a vibration and light. So Asha is not the name of Barbara’s higher self. One could not pronounce her name. One could not pronounce my name. And my name, while a sound, it is an unpronounceable sound, although one perhaps with certain abilities could say it. It is light and energy. When I come forth in this way, can you feel my energy? Can you feel the difference between my energy and Barbara?
We’re going to try an experiment… Please give us a moment….
Jeshua (but at first he did not identify himself with a name, just as a brother of Light): I greet you in love and in light. You do not need to know who I am. Can you feel the difference in my energy and Aaron’s? I don’t really have a higher vibration than Aaron, but Aaron has trained himself to keep his vibration lower when he talks because, when he spoke in the beginning, people would fall asleep due to the high energy. I find no need to limit my energy. I’m not going to talk to you that long. What is my name? Think of me as divine love and light, the essence of divine love and light. I had a name and a human incarnation, and most of you know me by that name, but that’s not who I am. That was simply one human incarnation.
I am light, I am love. I am the expression of the Father/Mother that comes to you to remind you that you are love. You can feel my vibration. It’s different than Aaron’s. The name is irrelevant.
(Speaking to an individual) Please trust me. There is no such thing as unworthy. If I may ask one thing of you, to try to trust me on that. And if you can’t trust me, you are not a failure. When “unworthy” arises for you, will you call my name and ask me to take it? “This is too much for me. Jeshua, please take it.” And I will of course come and take it. But I will not take it unless you ask me. This is your free will choice. It is not, as Barbara might phrase it, a cop-out to say, “I need help with this.” Eventually you know how to release it on your own, but for now, “Jeshua, please help me. I choose to release the thoughts and feelings of unworthiness, of limitation.” And it would be my joy to be there and help.
Whatever you wish to manifest, already is. It’s only the mind that it’s not there yet. Instead of thinking, “How do I manifest this? How do I attain this?” ask, where is it, right now? Can I see little glimpses of it? On a very cloudy, dismal day, where is the sun? And then you catch one sunbeam coming through, glittering on the grass. “Ah yes, the sun is there.” The love in your heart is always there. It goes behind the clouds, but you can trust that it’s always there. You do not have to be afraid that you are somehow other than light. How could you be?
I love you.
Do I interfere with the time of your process here if I visit with each person?
(continuing with individuals one at a time; some are recorded and transcribed)
How could you be separate? The Father, Mother, the radiant Holy Child. You are that child. People call me the Son of God, but you are also Child of God, and no less so than myself. How could you ever be less than that? The child comes into birth to experience the free will to choose love versus negativity and fear. It cannot learn to make that choice unless it experiments. Would you hold a child constantly under its arms and never let it walk on its own? It might tumble, it might scrape a knee, it might bump its head. “Hold it! Don’t let it fall!” Of course, you have to let the child fall or he cannot learn to walk. The Infinite Creator trusts each of you, born as human, with the infinite capacity for love. To learn how to bring forth that love. The Infinite Creator knows your capacity, only you don’t trust your capacity. Sister, I am your brother. What I did you also can do. That is, to live with earth catalyst with love. Ever more so with love. Trust that you will not be tested in the ways that I was tested. But nevertheless, I know it can be hard. I love you. My blessings.
Are you comfortable kneeling? I am your brother; there’s no need to kneel to me!…
Take a deep breath. I want you to feel how expanded, how immense you are. Don’t hold yourself small. Do you understand why you do that? Perhaps it’s time to let that go. It doesn’t serve you or others. Begin to trust that it is safe to claim your power. You have a deep commitment to non-harm and to service to all beings, and you will not misuse that power in any way, I can promise you that. If you feel afraid that you may be on the verge of misusing it, if the ego is stepping up with fear, ask, “Jeshua, help. Help me here to return deeply into the heart of love.” And of course, I am there, I will help you. So make yourself immense! Sing and dance with joy! Fly! And I will be there with you, and with love. My blessings.
You have come so far. Why do you limit yourself? You have found so much compassion for what you stated as the traumas of your life. I think deep within your heart there is a place that is afraid it cannot fully forgive. And I say to you that you can forgive. To forgive is to have deep compassion for yourself and all beings, and to understand that if you were in the situation of the other person, you might act the same way as they acted and spoke. When you know that, you become them and they become you, and they come into your loving heart, into the divine heart. They awaken to their own divine heart. And this heals them, as it heals you. And then, with no force, never with force but only when it becomes easy, you can test the words, “I forgive.” Whatever has been done to me, I offer forgiveness. And however I have harmed others, I ask forgiveness. So, I think this is your next practice. You have come so far, and I would not ask it of you unless I knew you could do it and were ready for it. Ask for me if you need help, and ask for the Mother. Ask for my Mother Mary. Ask for the Mother who was with us yesterday, who is a wider expression of the Divine Mother. Ask for me. All the help you need is there with you. I love you. My blessings to you.
It is much easier for the human to dwell on its limitations, to dwell on the subtle distortions that have arisen, than it is to rejoice in its wholeness. Imagine yourself in a situation with literally thousands of starving people. You come in a truck with food, packed in pre-arranged packages. Guards stop the mob from running into the truck, so that you give out these packets one at a time. No one knew ahead of time how many people there would be. You give out a thousand packets, there are a hundred people left that don’t have food, and you have no way to get them more food. You can only ask of those who have received, “Share with these last hundred.” But you don’t have anything left to give them. Can you feel inside yourself how you would blame and negate yourself for not having enough, rather than be grateful for having been able to feed the thousand? In my lifetime as Jeshua I could not feed everyone because some people turned away from the food that I offered, whether the actual food for the belly or that for the soul. It made me sad, because I knew they needed that food. But they of their own free will turned away. Unlike the one giving out sandwiches, you have infinite source of food. But some will turn away. And you of your personality self will think, “It’s my fault. I should have been able to feed them,” however that feeding would work. You learn to offer what you can from the place of love in your heart, and trust that those who turn away, they have reason to do so. You keep inviting, as I did, but you can never force another, and it is not your fault if they turn away. Do you understand? Take this to the deeper meaning in your life. It is never your fault they turn away. Offer with love. Keep offering. If they turn away, when they come back, offer again. But don’t take it personally when they turn away. Persist, gently, never with force. As soon as you believe it’s your fault, you cannot offer it anymore. I love you. My blessings (inaudible).
I’m going to give the body back to Aaron here, and see what further questions you may have.
Aaron: I am Aaron. I think at this point I’m going to start a new file.
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